Unbearable Pain: My Struggle Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches
It began on a overcast Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden pain bloomed behind my one eye. Then came rapid shocks, like lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the pain eased and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.
The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: aura in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-on agony in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.
Cluster headaches often begin with severe pain around a single eye that persists for several hours.
About 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Attacks usually start with abrupt, excruciating pain focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in periodic bouts; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.
What connects patients is the intensity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.
One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to several causes, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.
Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.
Nevertheless, the inability to organize life around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.
Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his victims' heads.
Historical healing texts propose bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more folk cures.
It was a European physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.
The disorder were only officially classified by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery that supplies blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the condition note this.
In 1998, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.
In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor researched his symptoms.
Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is essential: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.
National guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known people.
But leading neurologists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short cycles with occasional episodes are managed with abortive treatment alone. Longer or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.
The official guidance need revising to reflect a